don't let the bed bugs bite.

they tell me halloween is the best holiday. where you get to dress up as something you're not.  you can be anything in your wildest dreams just for one night.


not.


halloween is the worst holiday. its that holiday where you're so scared out of your mind that you can't sleep. 


i spent my halloween weekend half in asheville and half in raleigh.  friday night, i went out with my family for dinner. it was really nice.  we went to twisted fork, and then they took me back to the dorm.  saturday i left school at 8am for asheville.  when we got there, i watched brett's game, and then went to the dance afterwards.  there were girls there dressed in lingerie and practically having sex on the dancefloor. totally not my thing, i'd like to think that i am much more classy and elegant than those kl@$$y salem girls.  


sunday, we drove back to raleigh, and i spent the night covered in fake blood, wearing a nightgown, and holding farah's hand while caked under about two inches of makeup.  haunted holt 2010.  theme: saint mary's ghosts.  NOT a good plan.  let's just say that i got about two hours of sleep that night.  i'm scared shitless of ghosts, especially the saint mary's ghosts.  i had some serious issues with them sunday night.  i made Max stay on the phone with me until i fell asleep though. hahaa. 


so, chad texted me yesterday while i was in english.  he told me that his mom told him to listen to a song that reminded him of me.  we've only talked a little bit since, but i really want to have a good conversation with him in which we figure out what happened between us and work it all out.  i miss him, really badly, and i'm pretty sure that he's always going to have me wrapped around his finger.  


this is going to make me sound crazy, and who knows, i probably am, but when i turn eighteen, if he and i are together, we're going to stay together. so, i'm getting his name tattooed on my hip, where my bikini will cover it.  i know, its stupid, and reckless, and completely unnecessary, but i'm going to do it, along with the 5 on my wrist. 


"i told you so" -carrie underwood.


this weekend is FOCUS weekend. bring on the drama, lee beauchamp. i'm sure there will be some.


rawrrrr.